Readers, it is time for another update from my personal life. I don't know whether you like hearing these or not, but remember, this blog is primarily for my own personal catharsis, so if you don't like it . . . go visit Subservient Worker for some laughs!

Poor Feb has a broken nose and has been calling on me for long talks and companionship quite a bit over the last few days. He even asked me to create a "Get Well Video" for him, which I did, and we spent about four hours talking while attempting numerous times to somehow send the massive file over the internet. It finally worked, he loved the video, and I got to go to bed at 3 30 am.

After our very long talk, Feb sent me an email. It wasn't very flowery. It basically said, "I miss you but I'm not saying I love you, but I don't know if I miss you because I'm used to being around you or if I actually made a big mistake. I have noticed that my friends don't seem to make up for your absence, but I really am just confused and don't know what I want."

Readers, I am a romantic. I want to be swept off my feet and to feel overwhelmed and special and important. This email made me feel none of those things. On the other hand, however, I think Feb was being very honest with me, which I appreciate. But while it did let me know that Feb thinks he may still have feelings for me, it also made me feel very undesired and not especially sought after.

Let's face it, Readers, every woman wants to feel sought after. She wants to feel cared for and desired and loved and needed and she wants to know that her man would go to the ends of the earth for her. This is the other Big Problem with Feb's email. It contained this line, quoted exactly:

" . . . I also know (whether you like it or not) that I want to live in [Foreignland]. You’ve told me before that you don’t agree with me saying that, but I do. . . "

You see, this was the major problem in our relationship. Like any long-distance couple, Feb and I were torn between who would inevitably have to give up their country and their home if we eventually were going to live together. I was more than willing to move to Foreignland, but Feb was not willing at all to move to Canada.

And this is the issue- it's not that I mind moving away for someone I love, it's that I don't want to move away for someone who doesn't love me enough in return to be willing do the same. It's the principle of it all- I need him to love me so much that he'd move across the world for me. Whether I actually ask him to or not is beside the point. It is difficult to know that you are the only one willing to compromise.

So now I feel like I have been given an ultimatum. Feb is basically, I believe, asking me if I am still interested in him, yet he is warning me far in advance that I must be willing to go to him if I want us to work. He is simply not willing to live anywhere but his homeland.

Is this fair? I suppose all is fair in love and war . . . but I feel hurt and confused and I wish things were just easier. I haven't answered his email yet, but he asked tonight that I would as soon as possible. He says he has another email to send me, but he can't until he receives my reply.

Wish me luck readers. Feel free to offer heaps of advice in the comments section! I'll carefully review all your ideas, I promise!